Tuesday, May 28, 2024

This mood

Tuesday, May 21, 2024

Got a complaint today

My boss asked for my email.. I thought that's weird. 
He sent an email forwarded from the company / landlord. There was some stuff I hadn't cleaned that I was supposed to . I had no idea.. ๐Ÿซค๐Ÿ˜ž of course I took it seriously. My boss didn't seem mad at me.. I just feel like disappointed in myself... BUT tomorrow I will go and fix all of that Asap!!! ,๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ‘
I hope I can make them happy. If not.. Aaahhh!!!

Saturday, May 18, 2024

Everyone keep pissin me off

Starting with my mom.. I went early. 9ish am to go to this store mega store like Walmart kinda. 
I saw this gigantic chocolate ball. 2 pounds of it. ๐Ÿ˜ฎ
I was on the phone with my mom. She laughed at me for thinking it was cool. I got excited over it☹️

Then this dude on Snapchat I added from an app.
Asking for a pic. I said I don't feel like ir or look good right now.. I said to tomorrow.   His like sure , you don't want me to see your jewels?? Like excuse me?? ,๐Ÿคจ๐Ÿ˜ ๐Ÿ˜ค

This guy over in the u.s wich i talk through an app, we txt. He asked do you ever go on adventures? 
What is that supposed to mean? ๐Ÿง๐Ÿคจ Does he think I just stay home, what if I did? It's MY life . Not yours. I don't say so this or why you do that?

I'm just ready to sleep ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ people be on my nerves today .... Ugh....

Sunday, May 12, 2024

It's all in my head

Its around 1.30 am. I can't sleep. My ovaries or whatever it is are hurting..๐Ÿ˜ž๐Ÿ˜– my anxiety and sadness are just in full blown alert. I want to escape it but how can I when it's on my own head??? Ugh!! ๐Ÿ˜ฎ‍๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿ˜ค๐Ÿ˜“๐Ÿ˜Ÿ I feel so alone too... ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ

I was outside. Taking a hike on Saturday with my mom. She just right away mad me feel like shit.
I told her I worked and I might not be able to walk very far. She just comes at me and like I'm making an excuse and I'm lazy?? And that when do you go outside to the woods? I may not be out hiking every damn day but I love nature !!  I have been working 7 hours every day moving around. Standing on my feet. Just makes me so sad. She makestgose comments. I had to stick to going for that hike. She still continued with that . My legs started to feel weird. I wanted to rest. Made fun of me... Just hurts alot. I'm trying to get myself to do stuff. Last time I'm going with her ... She hasn't no one else either. Get some real friends . Don't count me in
Just not what I had in mind for my Saturday ☹️