Hello March!!

I can tell spring is upon us in Sweden. Even My cat Lilly is outside more and she is so sensitive to cold. So if she is outside alot. Then the weather is a bit warmer FOR SURE. 🌱⛅

Im still struggling losing the weight. ☹️New week tomorrow I still got 3 monhts til summer. Lets GO!!! 😬💪I wont give up. Food addiction and binge eating disorder is fuckin hard. One day at a time.⌚

 First I will stop snacking at night before bed time. Im gonna try to eat dinner . Im very bad at eating good dinner. Exercising atleast 1-2 times +´more  Thats what Im gonna start with next week!!!! 

Im so happy I have only 563 sek (56 dollars) left on my loan🎉🎊. Been adding large sums of cash to speed it up. Then I have 4 more to go. I got 2 I will focus on. Feels Amazing. The loans have been a big burden on me and my economy.  Well I guess when my financial is going better I gotta focus on my health and my weight too. Or else , I cant give up on that..🌻🌹🌷

Lilly 

Smokey 

Luna 

Yesterdays Walk 

Mirabelle 

Very tired and sore feet

 

Well Im sorry I didnt blog about my food or took pics...I been so tired , well my feet is tired and hurting 😣😩I had to work til 3 pm yesterday because the school had an open house...Phew. And today my mom and I went to my bros grave and put his gravestone , My mom made his gravestone cool huh?? 🥺I will take a pic of it in a couple of days. My 150 budget is going...well the thing is i had to buy bustickets to get to work. I dont know, does it count??🤔 I have to get to work. I only bought a frozen dinner , It was money from soda cans. I done good. Tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!!! YESS I dont have to go double with the other woman, I really like working alone..yepp😏

By the way I got my big pack of nails + some Halloween themed nails!! YAY! I will remove them for tomnorrow. I cant have them cleaning LOL But arent they BEAUTIFUL😍😍💖💖🥰🥰 

First day of spend zero week

 

Well my first day went pretty okay, I admit I still snacked on 1 snickers + icecream with whipped cream, Ughhh🙄. I did take photos of my Breakfast , Lunch and Dinner, I wish I could have squeesed in some exercise, My stupid foot is hurting.😩😩 I have flat feet, It sucks. Plus being overweight isnt the best either.  The soups are easy to make and i have to admit they do taste good to be only 1.20 cents.  And it last for whole day. EVEN BETTER!!!!🙃😄

Plus something happened at the grocery store. I got a unknown number calling me, I answered, It was the boss from the cleaning company. She had emailed me before I had some questions.  She thought it would be easier to talk , Im going to clean at a school tomorrow!!!! 4 hours I think it is or 3!! for 2 weeks. I But I will start at 6 AM. UGH! That will be tought for sure. I gotta get up at 4.45 or earler... But I guess its better than nothing🤷‍♀️ since I got no shifts at the sourpuss girl. They txt me on Friday at 9.30 pm (rude),🤦‍♀️🙄 begging me to work on Saturday. I told a lie. I said I wasnt in town, I wont work for someone who just think Im down at the bottom of the chain. Pffff..... I can tell she dont like me either... Sorry got a little much but I just needed to tell you all. 😴 Time to try to sleep. Just anxious for tomorrow 😳

Breakfast 

Lunch

                                           Dinner

                                                                                         

Egg Donation Completed On Monday

 

YeppNow I dont have to take those hormone shots or anything. Wich feels good. Im still swollen and my boobs are hurting... I already got the payment to my account. They were so nice. 11 eggs were taken out. Not bad.

I weight alot more than I did? I hope its just fluid. I have to get back on the weight loss journey again. My mom just told me I snore LOUD! Really loud. Thats not good. Im not sure if its because of my weight or because of my allergies. But Its good for the health to be normal weight. Im gonna getback on it. I never gave up just havent been motivated to it... Im gonna try with 800 cals to 1000 cals a day. Thats what Im gonna try to start with.

Today I have dentist appointment. I was gonna have it on Monday but they callled and they asked if I could come today...Eh I guess its okay. I would rather have it on Monday. 

Hello August

Wow, 1st of August. July is officially over... Im not doing much. Just taking it easy. Chillin. I finally took those photos and then they are sent off for development. It said it would take til 10 August for it to arrive?? Really that long?? I hope it comes before that. I do hope he likes the photos. I dont know If I think they are any good.... Im working on myself , my body so. At the end of 2021 I will be down to 65 kg!!! I already lost 4 kg!!! I am down to 174 

Im gonna (try) to do aerobics today. I Do feel a bit lazy , non motivated. We will see. 

Im REALLY happy My brain has stopped to overanalyze and over think. Its such a relief. AMEN!!!

Im not gonna obsess over the mail nomore. If he wants to write he will do it!! if he loves me, He loves me.....

Im also reading about fear of abandnoment in relationship. I deff got that. 

Some Motivation Weightloss Quotes

 

Hello June!!

 

Hello June 

Its June , officially June. My brothers birthday is coming up. My Bro in heaven.🙏☹️❤️ He would been 32 this year. Me and my mom will probably go to his grave and put some flowers on there, Just remembering him. I do mis you Bro, I am thinking about you EVERYDAY ❤️❤️❤️

Other than that, I just been trying to lose weight. Its been alot harder than i thought🙄 it would be , still have just lost 2 pounds... Im trying to look for jobs. Its also hard , My mood keeps shifting. Some days are just fuckin hell and everything seems pointless.. Some days are okay... 🤔🤐

Hope something good comes along.😬😬

16/8 Diet

 

I changed the path of the diet. I dont feel like lchf is the right one for me so I found this diet.

16/8 diet 

Here is the explanation of it

16/8 intermittent fasting involves eating only during an 8-hour window and fasting for the remaining 16 hours. It may support weight loss and improve blood sugar, brain function and longevity. Eat a healthy diet during your eating period and drink calorie-free beverages like water or unsweetened teas and coffee

Im on day 2 of it...

Lose that weight week

Well yesterday was the last day of binging at evenings. Im gonnna try to lose 2 pounds per week. I can do this!!! Its alot of help with the calorie counter app I got , I really recomend it. 👍

I even exercised hard yesterday. I do feel it in my knee though. Its not good , I had a injury 2009 and its getting stuck sometimes when I try to stretch my leg. But Im gonna try to not exercise super hard every day. So my knee can rest til the next workout. YASS. 

Still going forward

Found some really good inspiration quotes. For everyone who is on their goal to lose weight or just started. We can do it!!!

My healthy eating is going good

Well its day 4 and so far its going good. Its not as hard if you wont let yourself have something sweet. time to time. Dont ban it completely because then I think you are more likely to fail. I mean a little of something. Not going crazy stuff yourself. Ive been starting to take walks now. It feels so much more Spring and I feeling alot more to go outside. I dont really fancy winter. 

Small weight loss goals works better

Im gonna go out and eat on the 28th , so that is 9 days til then. I want to make a small goal that I will lose 4 pounds til then. (2kg) Then I can treat myself. After that I will continue to lose the weight til summer. Sounds like a good plan. i just gotta stick to it.

My Healthy eating

As you know I am trying to lose the 9 kg I put on last year. So far its going pretty good. Some daysare hard. I try to think about not to snack too much late. I want to lose the 9 kg (22 pounds) within 3 months. If not before Summer. I reeeaallly dont want to feel like this at summer. Like flabby. And clothes not sitting right. Nope. Deff not😩😨

Gonna take my New Years Resolution seriously

I havent taken it seriously i think. Kinda cheated. lying to myself im being healthy etc. Thats not the right way to lose it. Time to stop with that 👍💪I did some aerobica for 25 min i believe. It was refreshing.

Next year I wont be this weight I swear I wont

Just tried to workout , Aw man. It sucks I cant get it right. Its like I mess it up. Everytime. But I will make a new years resolution. I will get down to my original weight. I will! I dont want to spend 2018 like this. I just feel like a whale. I know im not superhuge but it does feel like it at times. Im so mad I let my emotions take over back in early 2017. So freakin stupid!!!But another year is coming up and I will make it up. YES!

Deff  gonana do this 

I so want to hear this 

Dont stop trying I tell myself

Its so nice Friday is here. Even if I dont work everyday I sure do like Fridays. Who doesnt??
Work went well. I actually worked out before work. I kinda slipped into some bad eating at 6 in the morning. But hopefully since I been active I burned some off. 😏I just feel so darn guilty whenever that happen. I know its not the end of the world. I just feel like "I can just skip the whole diet since I slipped" or I tell myself You are gonna be punished!!! Its not good to punish yourself. It will happen that you slip now and then. As long as you forgive yourself and continue its all good. 👀💖

Workout all of the bad energy inside

New mindset and goals , Working out is a great way to release all of the bad energy you got inside instead of bottling it inside. Sweat it all out, Jump it all out, Run it all out. I swear you will feel so much better afterwards