Worry Bird I am

OMG this week has been sooo tough and Ive been thinking about the same thing over and over, If I will hear from my special guy soon and if he is okay, I wonder also if he is mad at me, Did I write something w rong on the previous letters etc.... Going a little insane. But I googled and apparently there are ways to stop worrying but to actually stop doing it actually very hard. I just wanna shut my brain off. LIKE SHUT THE FUCK UP! I want to say to him get outa my head, NOW!!

But....
Its gone 14 dys without a letter, I actually sent one out yesterday just so he knows im there..I dont even know if he has stamps or anything, I cant send him any money for it....DANG.