Im starting to think My Man deserves someone who hasnt the problems I do. Someone who is happier. Who doesnt suffer from the demons I do. I just feel its not fair to drag him into my problems. Its just too fucked up for you to know. Maybe thats why he hasnt called for more than a week. I do blame myself. . I just hate my head. My thoughts. I will always love you I wont get upset if you ever find someone else. I just feel so guilty Mom for you having to hear and put up with me too. its not fair to you. I should keep it to myself. Im sorry I am who I am. You go through enough.