Finally it arrived

It's morning of 26th. The cats been acting all weird. Going in and out. 🙄 But it finally came. Visit from Aunt Flo lol. I feel so fuckin relieved. My obsessive thoughts are gone. I just feel like someone just pulled the plug from all the darkness down the drain. Ahhhh relief. I can breath.  Sure I will have some cramps and all but to Not hear the monster in my head.😌😌😌 Is just heaven. 

I didn't think I was going to make it. I'm not kidding. I was thinking of slitting my wrists open. 😔 I didn't want to be here. Checkin for a message from him  every fuckin 5 minute!!😤😤 Gosh!!!  It's just been a freaking week. Yesterday it felt like a month. I hope next month isn't gonna be that intense. Who knows 😒

I'd he loves me or care for me he will reach out. That's it. 🙏🙏 I'm praying he is in good health. Probably is  helping out those souls in the prison. Being a little Jesus.