Fear of not existing

I really have anxiety over not existing. It's been there for years and years. It's like shit why am I here?😲 What am I? 😳What's going to happen after death? What's going to happen to everything?😣 The universe? And then what??? 😱😱😱😱😱It's just scary and terrifying. Makes me feel really really alone. 😔

I don't know how to stop thinking about it. I try to stay buzy but it's the back of my head alot. I'm probably not the only one thinking about that? Pretty sure there are people like minded. 😣

But I have proof of there's an afterlife. Kinda. My brother Simon came through 2 years ago on the emf meter. I really haven't been able to get to talk to him. I tried a few times.  I don't know how to do it? Am I doing it right? I'm gonna try tonight. I do get signs here n there. Finding pennies. White feathers. I just really miss him. ❤️🦋

His birthday is on June 6th Its coming up 😭😭😭