Day 6 Ugh 😡🤬

Day 6 of the nightmare.... Im not as sad anymore. More numb and angry.😐😡🤬😤 Of course noone should be depressed... But like i said before if you do the crime . You do the time lol. (I have no idea where i got it from)  Like i said to him Yes to be friends and visit him in the future.. Hmm but now i dont know if i want to 🙄🫤😱

And stay in touch too. How am i supposed to heal if im still in touch??🙄🙄🙄  I know we all our our lovers on a piedestal. But its hard to see the bad right with that person? Like i mer him 4 times? 16 hours total . Other than that phone calls was for almost a year. That was very stressful . Never again. 🤦🤦🤦 Messaging is ok. Its not bad but its sure better than letters but im kinda tired of it. 

Its only words . Letters. Nothing more? No hugs . No kisses . No intimacy . 🥺😔😒 Just sucks . I got some thinking to do.🙏🫶🤔 If you are unsure pray . If you are scared, sad,angry ,happy pray !!!!

I still love him with my whole heart 💔❤️ He is still my Best friend. 

BUT

I found this really cool radio station. A Christian one. It has such awesome music . God brought me back to him .🙏❤️😍 I have been neglecting it for a while . This had brought me back. He will help me heal my broken heart 💔