Forgiving him ,Letting go of my anger and being selfish

I just cant go on be angry at him for that. I have to let it go. Plus to forgive him for being a selfish son of a bitch. Im gonna start to put "ME" first. not him. I even gonna try to not to think about him... I wil lsee how that goes lol. You know? Im gonna try to be selfish. Take careof me. I am not in prison and I will never be. He is! Not me! I am out here. I dont have to deal with that shit. I am doing time with him wether I want it or not but I can choose how I do it. Im gonna think of ME ME and MEEE. well my cats too :3 I think everyone should be a little selfish and have some space from your Bf/Gf.
I mean also space inside your head / thoughts. Dont have to worry and please 'em all the time.

Gotta have ME time

My favourite one 

YUUUP

Did not cross my mind

I was so wrapped up about what he had written that heck. I forgot ..Yesterday I had called the warden one more time (was just so angry ) And I knew he had filled in those request forms , The warden even remembered me because she didnt want the id nr ....I explained to her about it.she said All  I need is a date and it would be a contact visit!!!!! :D :D  Yup I did it. I finally fixed it! I am so proud of myself for doing that. I got as nervous as I did the first time but atleast we got what we wanted. Now I just need to save up as much as I can.  Atleast I can do something right I just hope he gets his head out of the brick wall and see that dont need to wait til he gets out =) =D and changes his mind.

A+ for me lol

hun give me space

I got another letter from my baby. He still believe that the no visit is right for now. That I should save up for our future when he gets out (he says it wont take that long) Honey have you lost your mind??
Hit your head in the brick wall??? Your gonna be there for a long time. I for sure will not wait that long. Nuuhuhhh.
 I dont agree on that...  to not visit just because its not a contact visit. I wanna get to know you wether its behind glass or face to face I will even make a suprise visit if thats the case lmao.
Heck I wanna travel to USA  wether i visit him or not. I fell in love with Usa when I was there 3 years ago. So i wanna go back. I would feel bad If i was there and he didnt know abt it. whenever I save up....Hopefully. If I ever get a job.......

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Tomorrow will be a better day

  

That letter made me kinda annoyed ,Im trying to put those feelings faar back in my head.

I like listening to rap when im upset. Helps alot. I have this thought that I just would give him some space to think about what he just suggested. For a couple of weeks.. I mean he cant just feel sorry for him that we wont see each other , I AM IN IT TOO.  Guys.. sometimes... Dont make any damn sense.

A piece of my heart just broke.

Missing my man and (my cat)

Sunday God Quotes

Movie time yay.

time to watch some movies. love that picture lol. I was thinking to watch some drama movie. Got some cold diet pepsi and chips . YUM.  See yyaaaa

Good soul Friday

Im just waiting for my mom we are going to the lake , gonna have a picnick  Sun is shining. 

Its gonna be GUUUD day. I found also a reciept from the recycling machine. 4 dollars. Someone hadn't picked it up. That was a suprise. A good one!!!

I still havent heard anything about my furbaby Missi. Where can my cat be???

Almost 1 month and 2 weeks gone.

Stayed home for 5 days!!! Aahhhh!!!

Im getting sooo restless, I havent been away from home (besides going to the grocerystore). Im relally really bored. BUT my mom is on her way home. She will be back tomorrow , YAY.  I am going to meet my other jobcoach tomorrow too. I have tried to save my busrides for the jobcoach. Dont want to use them just to waste them. Since im kinda broke til next week :/

I am so weird. On Saturday I found a tick size of a pea on my Aaliyah. I was  going to kill it but.... when it laid t here on the paper. It started to crawl. Just amazed me how fast it is despise the fact the tick has a large butt with blood. I mean the tick is fat and gotta weigh some. I put it in glassjar LOL.
It has lived ever since. I wonder how many days it will survive there.
I actually named the tick to "Cruella"

it was superhard to photograph that thing. 

I gooooottttaaaa be bored when i do this shit. lol!!

I also found a yellow spider!( My roomate) on my laptop. So cute. I named it Sunshine. I actually got a picture of her/him.

Toxic Ingredients in Shampoo's

I never realised that there is so much bad stuff in shampoo's (conditioners) And we use it in our hairs. Every day/Every week etc.

Here is a list of toxic ingredients.

Source: My little boob cancer

I miss you x 3

UGHH....

I just feel so empty today. I really miss my mom. She has been at her sisters in Finland for 10 days now. :(  She said she hasnt been able to find a bus that matches the fairie that goes to Sweden. I hope she does!!  Want her home
I also Miss my cat Mama Purr. Thats what I call her (Missi) And I miss my man too.
One day I will see you , baby. One day soon.

Craving Everything

Do you ever one of those days where you just see a picture of some food and go like "Aww I so want that"
I just saw a picture of icecream and GOSH I want icecream. I could go for some pizza or steak too....Just watering in my mouth thinking about it. Worst of all im kinda broke...I got one week and 4 days til I get money.

I will make it through. (I hope :(

Nature is cool

Another sunny day. I decided to take the bike to  town because...my cats pills was..pretty expensive :/ I was NOT prepared. I think im gonna take it tomorow too. Im very tired  but I saved about 5 bucks (40 sek) THAT  FEELS AWESOME. and its nice nature along the way. Woods , woods and moore woods lol

Im craving steak with gravy. OH MAN THAT WOULD BE SO GOOD. Im gonna have to become more cheap than I am cus of that medicine. Its 13 days left til payment. Cant wait!!!!!
Im thinking...Tacos. :P :P :P

live life to the fullest

(As much as you can)

I was reading this article about a woman who discovered cancer a year ago and a journalist catched up the story this year. It was so sad. She noticed it started to bleed in her female parts. Alot. She thought it was her period but then she kept bleeding more. Got checked up. It was a tumor. And it was a rare  type. Only 4 women per year in Sweden gets it! They shrinked it and got the rest with radiation. But after not too long she started to feel pain in her hip and the left side of her head. YEPP the cancer had spred.... and it was too much and too aggressive. She passed away on August 8 :(

Made me think alot about , how anyone can get that horrible disease. When I hear about that the small things just dont seem too big.

Tried to hold these feelings away all day

Tried to hold these feelings away all day but they eventualy catched up with me.....

What a weird magical day

I got a letter from my man , He had mentioned he was in an interview on TV , couple of weeks ago. He gave me the link to the site where it was. I was like suuper nervous.
 I wasnt sure what he looked like now and if he sounded the way I remembered. Seeing him on a video..I just seen pictures of him.

It was like very short interview, on a newsreport about biblical college in Darrington Unit. But wow he looked good, soo handsome and hot lol. I cant understand why he think I am good looking. I feel like a dork. That was a good suprise and gift for today.  ^____^
Weirdly makes me miss him more in a different way. I love him even more now,

Very possible to go without social media.

Well, the time is 5:30 PM and I havent talked to anyone or looked at my posts on Facebook. I havent checked Twitter. I havent checked meetme.
I would say its very possible to not have an account on either one of them. There is life outside Social Media. Do I feel lonely? Actually no. .....I am very suprised about that.

Space from Social Media

I have been thinking about going a day or two, WITHOUT logging into Facebook, Meetme, Tagged Twitter etc. Like an experiment. I mean very often I feel like social media makes me feel more lonely than feeling like im apart of something. Do you relate?? That is why Im doing this.  I will blog my experiance.  ( I will blog though doesnt count hehe)

 To get some space to think, Often I dont think too much. Im just JOKING, I think too much. Yup!!!!
Social Media give me some space!? lol

Funny Pretty Little Liars pictures -A LOL

My FAV, LMAO

Exactly LOL